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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 28, 2006 1:40:55 GMT -5
The weather outside was as expected, rain and fog. It was the usual weather for this area, and this time of the year. The rain was pour down hard, hitting window panes at an alarming rate. The vast amount of rain caused the grounds to be flooded with water. Numerous areas were so deep in water that when stepped into the water went past your ankle. To top off the nice day, a heavy fog rolled in around breakfast, making it quite hard to see. All outside classes were cancelled and students were advised to stay inside. Some people had attempted to go outside but came back seconds later drenched in water as if someone had thrown them into the lake.
No one would be caught outside in this weather, well no one but Gemini. She had pulled the hood of her head over her face and ventured out into the grounds. She didn’t know why she was going outside, well she did but she didn’t want to admit it to herself. She had vowed not to kill herself using a knife, but she didn’t say anything about not staying out in the rain. With the heavy fog no one would be able to see her outside, unless they followed her from the beginning. She didn’t think that anyone had seen her leave, nor did she think anyone would realize that she was gone. By the time they did, she doubted anything could be helped.
Keeping her cloak wrapped around her she quickly walked down to the lawns and settled herself in the crock of a hill. In between two hills it would be harder to spot her even without the fog. Taking off her cloak she threw it beside her and laid on the water soaked ground. A shiver ran through her body as the cold water seeped into her clothing. She wasn’t wearing much, so within a few seconds she was drenched from head to toe. Closing her eyes she let out a sob and shook slightly, waiting for her numb feeling to come along. Once all the body heat was gone it would be easier for her because she would no longer feel anything. It was a matter of time before the cold would cause her to not function anymore. This method might be slow and somewhat painful but it was a way to go.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Jan 29, 2006 20:46:12 GMT -5
He had seen his sister leaving the castle. He knows his sister pretty well, she liked to be alone. He sneaked out of the castle behind her. He tried to keep up with her pace. The fog made it hard for him to see.
He finally saw her stop sitting down. Cyrus watched as what was going on. She was crying..something he had never seen his sister do in public. He finally couldn't stay quiet anymore. He moved beside her. "Gem.." He said taking a deep breath. Cyrus looked at her. "What are you doing..?"
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 29, 2006 21:06:37 GMT -5
The rain continued to get worse as if someone had refilled the pool and it was just spilling over the side like a water fall. Most of her body heat was gone, and the numb feeling had come. Gemini was glad for that, soon she would feel absolutely nothing. It was taking a bit of time but it would soon be over. She was glad that no one would walk outside, or be aware that she was here. Cutting would have been a better way to go at it, seeming as it would kill her faster, but she made a stupid promise and now she had to live by it.
Enjoying the numb feeling she was soon going to lose conciousness and then it wouldn't be long from there. A few more sobs were immited from her as the tears mixed with the rain. Her whole body stiffined when she heard someone beside her. Why would anyone follow her here, it was wretched outside. She kept her eyes closed and bit her lip. "Laying on the grass." she said trying to make it sound casual. It was hard to keep her voice from breaking.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Jan 29, 2006 23:39:45 GMT -5
Cyrus felt the presurre of the rain on his body as it increased. "Psh.." That was the only response to her. He had suspected his sister of cutting herself, but..could be she be trying to do it now. He knew how his sister bottled up her emotions sometimes. "Gem, what are you really doing here?" He asked her. "And don't you lie to me ethier." Cyrus quickly added. He decided to just ask her and get done with it. "Do you cut yourself? is that why your here?" He waited for her anwser she was probally going to be upset but he didn't care. He wrapped his robe tighter to keep him warm from the cold rain.
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 29, 2006 23:51:06 GMT -5
"What does it look like I am doing!" she said trying to talk over the rain. It wasn't working so she sounded like she was yelling. It was her excuse if anyone asked why she was yelling. She continued to lay there refusing to get up. The longer she was out here the better, even if she had to try and come up with something to keep her here. Maybe she could talk to the point where she was too cold to move. "Lie to you, since when do you care?" she asked. It was true non of her family really cared what she did. They knew about her addictions and habits from all the rumors and shit that was spread through the school. She bite down on her lip when he asked her that. "You have no proof that I cut so drop it." she said unconsiously pulling the sleeve over her wrists. She was closer with Cyrus then she was with her other siblings. They were younger and it was harder to relate with them.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 21:37:23 GMT -5
He looked at her straight in her eyes. "Don't talk to me like that!" He said to her. "You know i care about what happens to you" He sighed deeply. He looked away from her looking around. It was still hard to see and it was still cold. He watched her pull her sleeves over her wrists. "I have no proof? show me..take your robe off show me your writs." He told her in a demanding voice.
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 21:48:34 GMT -5
"Like what, like someone who fuck in the head," she said rolling over onto her stomach. Getting her chest soaked and cold would cause her lung damage. Dying from a cough wouldn't be so bad, it was get her to die one way of another. She glared at him and took her robe off throwing it at him. She quickly got up and ran for towards the lake. Maybe she could loose him. She wasn't in the emotional state to talk to anyone right now without breaking down.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 21:57:03 GMT -5
He grabbed this robe and saw her running away. He soon couldn't make her out anymore. Cyrus cared about his sister she knew that. They had always told each other things, so why can't she show him her wrists..but that was now proof enough. He needed to know why she cut herself. He didn't bother trying to go back to the castle he would probably get lost.
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 22:10:04 GMT -5
Gemini stopped not too far away and fell to the ground. She didn't know what was going on with her and with her life. Something had just snapped in her, she had been fine for a while now, actually somewhat happy. She was even clean for two weeks and counting. She didn't know what had happened today, maybe it was the weather, it made her think. She wiped the tears from her face and stood up heading back to where she had been before. It was a hard task with the fog and the rain but somehow she had manged to make it back. She was drentched as she looked down at her brother. She needed to figure this out but that would happen later. Falling to the wet ground again she rolled up her sleeves and showed him her arms. Because of the rain it was harder to see she was crying.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 22:20:41 GMT -5
Cyrus looked at her arm, he looked at his sisters face. "Gem.." He touched her arms. He felt the cuts, he shook his head in disgust. "Why..." He said not looking at her still looking at her cuts. He didn't have nothing else to say. Why would anyone do this? It was so sick! So disgusting! A million other thoughts came in his mind. Why didn't his sister come to him?! "Gemini.." He said in a serious voice. "Why did you think this could solve your problems..it only makes them worse."
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 22:28:31 GMT -5
Gemini looked down at the moist ground before quickly pulling her hand away. "See this is why I don't tell you. That disgusted look you just gave me is the reason. This is why no one tells anyone about it. Its not something they are proud of, and its not something they want people to know!' she voiced her thoughts trying to hold back a sob. "It helps me forget about the stupid pain ok, thats why I do it!" she told him wrapping her arms aroud herself.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 22:36:18 GMT -5
"What..pain?" Cyrus asked her. "Whatever it was.." He stopped and looked at her. "YOU COULD HAVE TOLD ME INSTEAD OF CUTTING YOURSELF UP!" He yelled at her. He took a breathe. "I'm sorry.." Cyrus took a good look at the cuts once more.
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Jan 31, 2006 22:44:51 GMT -5
Gemini said nothing about the pain, she kept quiet about that. She moved away from him when he started yelling at her. "This is why I didn't tell you. I can't handle you yelling your fucken ass off at me. The second something isn't right for you you snap. I wouldn't be able to take that!" she yelled back at him getting up and trying to get her cloak. She couldn't take the confrentation and yelling. It was going to lead her to something she didn't want to do again.
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Post by Cyrus Malfoy on Feb 1, 2006 18:57:29 GMT -5
"Your not anwsering my question." He said ignoring what she had said. "Why can't you tell me?" He got up. "Just forget it.." He began to walk back trying to find his way. He stopped and turned around. He moved his hair out of his face, the rain making it drip. Cyrus walked back to his sister. He was upset that his own sister couldn't tell him anything. "You know i've told you a million things but mom and dad don't know..not even my friends..not that I don't have many.." He kneeled down by his sister..waiting for her to anwser. He hated the silence..
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Post by Gemini Malfoy on Feb 1, 2006 19:11:03 GMT -5
"Because I hate remembering!" she yelled back at him her voice finally cracking. The rain seemed to start pouring harder as she tired to remember. The weather was the same as it had been the day it had happened. Even though she liked the rain, this time it was killing her. She looked away from him and sighed seeing he was right. "Remember that night I didn't come home till morning?" she asked, it was a about two years ago, she wasn't too sure. "Well I lied, it wasn't cause I passed out at a party, some guy came up behind me and..well " she stopped hoping to gawd that he knew what she ment. She didn't want to say it out loud. It killed to even say that much.
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